sunday thought {find comfort in Him}

how do I tell my children about what happened.. when i can barely comprehend it myself?
the sorrow and the pain that has rocked that community is just unimaginable right now..

if i'm feeling so overwhelmed with emotions right now, i can't even imagine how the  people of Newton, CT are feeling.

may God bring his comfort and peace to those grieving right now.. and in the midst

of all of this, let us remember that God is still good.  and He always will be.

if you are feeling as overwhelmed as i am right now, 

turn to Him.. turn to His word for comfort. 

it will not fail you.

and take an extra moment each night to hug your babies a little tighter.

this week. and how i almost walked out with my kids.

 

it's monday night and i'm actually sitting by myself  at panera writing this post.

by myself.

i've done some of my bible study, updated my journal and had some time to write.

i have to be quick because the college girls at the next table are going to start

talking about their professor and i feel like i really need to listen to that conversation.

{i don't consider it at all being nosy.. because, hey, if they're talking loud enough well

i can't help but listen right? and it reminds me of my college days when i complained about the same

things}

oh wait, where are my 3 kiddos you ask?

my husband is at home with them and tonight is my 'night off'.

you see, we have a little agreement set up between us.

he gets to golf on his days off and i get free time at Panera... but personally, i think i've got the better

end of the deal.. because i get to eat broccoli cheddar soup and that alone is worth it.

 

 

this week is going to be pretty mellow i think.

i  have a small birthday dinner for one of my best friends.

we are meeting up at olive garden.. and because i'm always thinking about food,

i can tell you that i already know what i'm going to order.

 

 

yep, clear the table. the pregnant woman is in the restaurant

 

 

i am still working on my Beth Moore bible study (James) and i'm almost finished with it.

i've started another bible study {through Community Bible Study.. if you've never heard

of it check it out. it's awesome. it's changed my life} and we are studying the book of Job.

 

 

can i tell you something though?

between James and Job and all that in between i'm feeling slightly overwhelmed.

is there such a thing as spiritual burn out?

if so, then i may be at the beginning stages of it.

when i'm doing a study it literally takes me about an 30min to get through one page.

i highlight and underline,

and copy into my personal journal and think about it

and look it up

and then if it's really earth-shattering (which is like every other sentence), i send it to my sister via text message.

oy.

i've got to figure out a good reading system.. pronto.

 

my children started awanas a couple of weeks ago (children's bible year long bible study/group).

i've never attended awanas before (as a child) and my children have never attended either.

this is our first year and i will tell you right now.. i was downright nervous for them.

we are new at all this {this church and awanas} and i didn't want them to feel lonely.

 

 

there was a point at which i almost grabbed my 2 oldest by their hands and walked them out of there.

i was so scared for them.. that they wouldn't make any friends, that they would be lonely,

that they would be separated, that they wouldn't like it.

my darling 8 year old stood there alone, not talking to anyone (even though there were

kids next her) as the worship team was starting to worship. she looked so small and out of place...

 

 

i stood at the back of the sanctuary and i watched her stand there and

whispered a silent plea to Him;

please, please dear God, let this be right for them.

and if it's not, then show me.

but i think they need this.. they need more than i can give them.

please let this work.

i didn't know what else to say because that was all i could say to Him at that moment.

i walked out of there with tears in my eyes, hopeful and scared of what I would find

when i picked them up.

i left and met up with some friends for a birthday dinner {which was so needed for my frazzled nerves} and discreetly watched the clock.

i went to their classes and encountered happy smiling faces.

they loved it.

they really really loved it!

(i almost broke out in song and dance at that point but

i was afraid of my water breaking).

 

praise the Lord.

 

and it all sounds so silly as I type this out.

i can't shelter my kids..i know that.

but i'm exposing them to something big..bigger than what I can comprehend.

this, along with what i teach them, will be the cornerstone of their faith.

and that's BIG.

that's something to worry about..

but once again, God very clearly showed me that He's got it all under control and

why, why, oh why would I ever doubt Him?

 

"When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul." -Psalm 94:19

 

 

thank you for hearing me ramble about this.

you all are so good to me!

and now, excuse me, while i try very hard to ignore (but not really) the conversation going on next to me.

have a wonderful week!

xoxo

on my mind.

{1}

Oh, I wish I could be a part of The Happy Day Project over at Joy's Hope!

I love how a group of girls came together with this idea and this wonderful little project

was created.

To be used as an instrument of God to spread a little love in this world..

it's just so inspiring.

Monday's free printable is already up as well as
the daily "happy" task for the day and a charity highlight.

{2}
My entire body hurts today.

Feels like I've been hit by a couple of trucks.
That's what a back to back gym workout will do to a person..

spin class for an hour and then body sculpt.

I don't think I can feel my legs at this point.

Hmm.. does that mean I don't have to cook dinner?

{3}

We went to watch my nieces volleyball game last week and loved watching her play.

My oldest wants to play volleyball now which I think is great but..

why are their shorts SO short??

Lordy.

{4}

Daylight Saving Time was this Sunday.

I personally love it.. for some reason, I feel as if that extra hour makes a difference.

My energy is up and I become very motivated.. hence the workout-that-almost-killed-me today.
But not motivated enough to do my dishes.. those are still sitting in my sink.

{5}

I think I've become a homebody.

I don't want to leave my house.

It's nice and cozy and there are always a dozen different projects I could be working on

{or finishing up}.
I've got about 3 different sewing projects I'm working on, 2 house projects a-brewing {that includes a painting project} and 2 home decor projects that need to get done.
And I've got to start thinking of homemade Christmas gift ideas.
I think I just stressed myself out after typing all that out..

{6}
Aly posted this on Saturday.
It's wonderful and I think every one of us can relate. I'm sure we have all
gone through those periods where we just don't know what to do.

She said it so well,
"if you're scrambling for answers right now, i'd encourage you to stop and fix your eyes on Jesus. pray, cry out, simply be in His presence, read His word."
"...but most of the time i just need God's Truth to fill my mind instead of the lies that can often echo so much louder. even if you don't find answers, wisdom, clarity, you will most certainly find peace."

And friends, that peace that you will find when you grow closer to Him
makes all the difference. It allows you to wake up in the morning and face whatever
the day may bring.

{7}
Wow, I can't believe how quickly I was able to type out this post.
It's amazing how fast I'm able to do this when I don't include pictures..
but it kind of feels wierd to me.
A post without pictures?
It's kind of like going out in public without a bra on..
you feel kind of naked.

Well, this post feels naked.

I'll make sure to post pictures next time :)

Have a wonderful week!